I hope this blog finds you well. I have felt like I have had nothing to share lately, isn't that crazy? John was like, "Go running or something". He knows that is one avenue the Lord uses to speak to me about life. So, as I am running, all these thoughts come in and I think the entire time, but no joke, as soon as I am done running, they are gone. I try so hard to remember and there is nothing. Isn't that amazing how quickly we, as humans, are prone to forget. Forget what God has done, forget what lessons I have learned, forget the reason I chose to follow Christ. Life creeps in and we get going in our own pattern of living and things to do and I forget.
Today, I had my third time with the bible study (yes, a rhythm is taking place with these women that I have found comforting and encouraging) and each week someone else shares their testimony. Each week, we end up tearing up in some way as we force ourselves to recall the moment of choosing Christ as our Saviour. We all agree it wasn't for fame or convenient living, it was because we recognized we couldn't do it (LIFE) without Him. And yet, how quickly we forget and get bitter with the way things are or how things look....or we become frustrated when God does something that is not in our frame or box we have chosen to put him in. Instead of breaking our box and choosing to recognize God is bigger than what we are willing to think, we become bitter because He hasn't "performed" in the way we thought He should or would. These women are strong, fearless living women who have all had very hard circumstances in their lives and we were praying today that we won't forget in the midst of daily living that God has saved us from a wretched ending and we are thankful and He is good, even if we don't understand.
I don't know, I guess I just want to fight forgetting. Can I do that even though I am getting older?